I was browsing today at Paolo Coelho's site and I like one comment there. I think it is worth to have it here. The link to the whole Paolo's post is below. The one comment I am copying here. Hope Thelma will not mind.

My Mother used to tell me: “Perfection is not …. human”!!! If something was not always ‘perfect’ my Ancestors used to say: ‘Let something ‘up-side-down’ for the … Evil Eye’. It is in the Greek Mythology and genes, to be afraid of … jealousy and the evil eye: the Gods were …. causing troubles to the ..happiest, most beautiful, mightiest …, so that people would remember that we are not… GODS! :-))) Looking back for me is a … nostalgic game! I remember the .. bright lights but the ‘burnt’ lights too! I always say that the ‘burnt lights’ may not have given me joy, but for sure, they have added to my Wisdom and have enriched my .. Cosmos! They are the ‘Cyclops and Laestrygones’ carried in my .. soul and manifested in my WAY! Blessings, LOVE, Thelma xxx

http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2011/12/30/burnt-light

the big win of a women kind..

truly it is monogamy. imagine a women, she can't afford to just give herself to everybody as that would not follow her "woman" code.. she wants to have babies and to raise them, she needs also somebody to take care of the family, which is the man. man, naturally wants to sleep with many women as that follows his natural position, to make as much as possible women pregnant, which would ensure the flow of his own kind. therefore I assume monogamy is the big win of women kind as it is "against" the men kind and serves the purpose of matriarchy. Take it nowadays, many men are under the command of a woman, wife, lover.. whoever.. nowadays the men are (this is only a part of my opinion) a walking sperm private banks, truly, among men live many scientists, thinkers and hard working men. Yet we can't tell being a mother is no hard work. Still it comes naturally that women is taking care of kids while men are working to feed them and taking care of their material future. The question is, would women reach the number of scientists and thinkers without being bothered by their natural call (which I mean the pregnancy and kids raising)?

All the fuzz around..

Why now? Why not when it was needed? Vaclav Havel, our former president died just before Christmas. Now all the newspapers are writing about him which is good. But why now we want to claim Vaclav Havel as the man of the year? Why now we start to listen to his thoughts? Isnt it a bit late? Havel was for such project as united european nations, which truly is the european union, but nowadays (and it was also before the crisis) majority of the czech nation is against the union, mostly the parliament leading party. Why now we want to listen to thoughts which would be worth to think about before? We lost a unique person. People tend to recognize such 'things' not when they have them, but when they loose them.

The day before Christmas

So it is the December 23rd and the weather feels like spring april. What is happening? Where is the winter? The snow covering the ground, the wind blowing the hair up and the freeze biting our bones? The flowers must be confused, bears sweating in their caves instead of calmly sleeping till spring. This just does not feel like the true Christmas outside. Inside, at home, when there is dark outside it is fine, the atmosphere and all the decorations bring the Christmasy mood into my heart, warmhearted wife, Christmas sweets and Christmas potato salad. That is at least part of the winter. The nature is changing within. Threat. This might be a warning.

Christmas shopping..

I hate Christmas shopping, but I also need to go shopping with a backpack on me as we will do 3 kinds of Christmas potato salad. One in a way my wife is used to have it from her family, one as per recipe from my family and one traditional from Wien. So I do have big backpack as it will be a lot of potatoes. This is the kind of Christmas shopping I need to survive and I know I will as long as it os about delicious food. Not necessary to have a lot, rather than that to have a good time preparing it and eat the delicious Christmas supper.

The battle..

Today is a day when we can go and register at one of the prague's hospital for birthgiving. We were looking for some nice hospital but at the end it will anyway depend on the doc who will be there when the baby starts to wish going out. My wife is for podoli a nice mother-care place, I am more for motol a very good hospital in prague. Anyway as she is the one carrying the baby her vote won. So I am going there now at 4am to be there the first one as they take only a 12 ppl maximum day. Nice, isnt it?

Yes, we did it..

Ot eas planned (or rather, we decided?!) to turn our sleeping room floor covered with carpet into a wooden floor with aljaska wood imitation. Surprisingly we did it quite in time. 4 hours of neverending work made it worth. The sleep after nicely done handwork was just like being blessed by God himself. Thanks my wife who was trully a remarkable leader (rather commander, as she loves to give commands) we made this thing happen. There was one point where I trully enjoyed making the floor. That was when my wife feeded me with toasts while I was doing the floor. Nice, isnt it?! Bless you all..

Disgusted..

Been in McDonalds and did not find teenagers eating burgers,no no,did not find adults eating fries and burgers,surprisingly I did see more kids eating happy meals,fries,burgers and swallowing it with cola. C'mon guys, I thought when somebody has a kiddl,they usually are 'normal'. No they are not. No no no. I have a kiddo on the way. Dunno if boy or girl. Honestly I dont care, I wish my kiddo would be healthy but the sex does not matter. I will love my kiddo,have in mind many thoughts for games,trips and all 'do' things. Looking forward. Thanks God for all the 'good' things.

Trully, just a thought is not enough

Did you get in a situation when you have a great thought in your mind, you know that if you would do it on that way it would be close to perfectionism and still you dont do that or you do it otherwise. Why? Os it laziness (again)? Or some kind of 'i can do it even better mechanism? I doubt. It is just because we (i) do not have enough will to take the thought into our hands and realize it. Of course, laziness comes within. What is then laziness? Something what we can put away? Is lazyness boredom? Who is not lazy? Or is laziness lack of energy? Or just simple, 'i dont want to do that right now' thing?

The week is over

Finally the week is over. Quite many tasks in the office which cant be solved only with writing emails..personal issues which face the moment of confrontation, a thing not worth of pleasure, but needed to experience that and tell myself..good boy..good boy. Tired. School awaits, Christmas around the corner. Need meditation.

Effortless..

Good intentions might sometimes turn to bad consequences. Causality? Anyway how we can ensure that our deeds have good intentions? Can such intention have a part of selfishness, a little part which would serve as a good feeling for something we did? Which would be in fact a reward (which is in an extreme sense taken for a 'payment'). According to Imanuel Kant we cant such (rewarded) intention take as good. Not the one where we count on the 'reward', nor the one where the reward comes without us counting with that. Then of course the best would be not to know about such 'reward' which nowadays in our 21.century is quite impossible. Or?

Sweet combination.

Here it goes. Heart, soul and brain (or brain soul and heart?) or (soul heart and brain)..oh stop that..ok what i am trying to say is that we, the humam beings are a sweet combination of those three, it matters what (who) from those is taking the lead, but also they can be in harmony. Aparently not all people stop and see this picture (what picture) but they intuitively act as it is so. Our fate, to combine this mix of logic, inner urge, feelings, wishes, dreams and many many other things. This sweet human coctail is the 'God' within us. (guess so..)

Brain..

What is there in our head. Some kind of thinking meat? A nice tool used to think, to suck the wisdom, to keep the memories and to try to analyze and find roads (logical roads) which might take us to our goal. Question. What is our goal? Does we (brain) set it up, put it in front of us like a carrot for a donkey? Or again we (the soul) put a picture in our minds which brain is trying to follow? Obviously the only logical thinker is..ta daa..brain. Question. Must everything follow the structure of pure logic? We do not (quite a big part of our time) act logically (we are not homo eoconomicus), many times we act angry, we envy, we dare and desire, we eat too much or drink not at all. We have a tool to think things through but we do not use it (majority of us) often. Brain is a magnificent tool in our heads, but aparently we do not juice the possibility of that tool to maximum.

In a need of a meditation..

I have found myself in the middle of a way which cant continue. If cant continue as it is dangerous for my soul and body. I am an exteme thinker, quite hard to find the 'nice, good and most probably the best' road to walk on. I know that most people around me support me to get there and I am thankful to them, however the decision must come within..

Go go man..

School, good thing to have. Besides work, wife and hopefully healthy and great future kid quite hard to catch the exams. I have missed few classes of philosophy already and also I need to better focus on my time schedule, firstly it allows me to manage things, saying having a better image, an overview of what all needs to be done, secondly, following the schedule, logically I shall have time for getting the knowledge into my head.

No more (again)

So the Christmas Wien? Imagine a shoping mall at the time of imaginable discoutns. Multiply it by 3 and take out all the people living in the mall's city for a longer time. That was the Christmas Wien. Full of Slovaks, Hungarians and Czechs. Full of crowds bumpimg into each other, in a way carrying a Rathaus market alcoholic punch (very sweet=sticky) without spilling it out on yourself or you angry czech/slovak/hungarian native speaker is an adventure. Of course not only the Christmas market, but also the shops were full of these Christmas killers. Full stop. Lets remember the nice memories. Great food (Wiener Schnitzel, Esterhasikeller), sweets at Demler, history and all the nice memories told by my wife. Truly an experience worth of do.
Eh. Of course, not all trips are perfect, whoever reads this, if you would be in Wien and lucky you would visit a cafe behind the Rathaus and Parliament, dont forget to be very angry with a 'Keller' who has a milk stain on his black suit. He was/is very mean and can ruin bunch of people nice memories from Christmas Wien

Trip to Vienna

Saturday morning, waking up too early at querter past four and going to bus station to catch the bus to Vienna. Hard to tell whats whirling in my head taking back my past Vienna memories. Nice memories. Looking forward for the day, 13 of us travel in a bus for Christmas Vienna and the most joyous thought right now is that we have reserved place in an old fashioned austrian restaurant where we gonna have the 'schnitzel' and 'erdapfelsalat' (krumplisalata)

Soul..

Where is the soul's place in the whole complex system? (is it a system?) well we have brain, a thinking (most of the time) unit. Then we have heart a pumping (always, since we were in our mother's womb) unit. But soul? What does soul do? We pretty much know (guess) what does brain do, how it works, but thats the process, not the inner process which is the no. 1 psychology topic. Our inner place a point from which we see the world (this point is different in each of us). We may guess how that works doing experiments but we may never come to the core as that seems to be somewhere else. That could be our soul. Our 'us' 'me' 'you' which we take care about. Our intentions (which in all steps are probably always influenced by oir brain. Our dreams where the stream might begin in our soul but it is mixed with our brain's experiences. So how we can start the journey for finding our soul?

Heart..

Who else believes in heart nowadays? All the science is braon based and nobody gives evidence whats going on in our hearts..why? Did I as well resigned on listening to man's blood pump? Is it just a blood pump? Or? Where are the feelings? Going through the stomach. Where is the thinking? In our brain.. Where does the heart play the role in this? We do have feelings, the put us in position from which we see things, situations. We would act impulsively (without thinking) if we would not take time to analyze the 'situation' but then there os again no free space for our observation as the brain can affect our decision only with the knowledge we taught it. That lead us to a point where the only trustworthy source of living are the experiences

being real..

somewhere in there.. there hidden in our soul's core are little drops dropping to our brains when we dream.. mixed with our experiences and many wishes it creates a story, a story which is easily fast forgotten when we wake up. some of us are able to keep the "memory" of the story and share it with others, or remark it somewhere on a piece of paper. I am not one of those.. my dreams are by rule hidden under the sweet blanket of night and are kept there, forgotten.. only a very small background is written into me.. I call it the dreamtale.. something what let you know that you dreamt in that night, but what will probably not show the whole picture of your story. dreams in all are very nice, sometimes very scary things.. some of us see future in them, some of us chew the facts which happened in the day in dreams and then, when the morning come, they may bring a solution to something what "bothered" them. I am very pleased by fate that I have met somebody who used the dreams to live.. a dreamy person I used to call her.. this little spark, that she was able to bring her dreams into a reality was a very nice feature.. it was something what very few of us can do and it is truly a blessing.. I am not a dreamy person, I wished to be, but I am not. Many deeds I am doing are based on pure brain.. of course, I do have feelings, I do have empathy, I like and dislike, but the decisions I make are mostly based on pure facts.. are taking pros and cons and yet as this brings me joy, it brings me exactly what my brain needs.. an order, a nice line of life.. it does not compensate the feeling of having your dreams led your life line somewhere.. I do not think being a puppet of your dreams, but it is very close to the meaning. I admire people who can do that.. I am too scared of being taken by my dream master (soul?) and live.. someone would tell me (and I know who would tell it) that I am a coward and truly in this I am.. hard to tell where I am taking the courage to run my life as I want, to keep the laces of the life horses fast in my hands. It is a two approach phenomenon.. brain or dream? or mixing up those two? I dunno.. Descartes would come with brain only, Kant mixing up both of them.. who would be the one having the dreams only? Nietzsche? Probably Péter Müller.. a Hungarian "philosopher"..

Wild morning

Getting up early morning to catch a language session. Already on the way there thinking about past times, about my personal history. About Budapest city which appears to me now like a dream, like something supported by memories of scents, food tastes, old buildings a marvelois freedom bridge. Of many many experiences which are trully important for me. Missing old times when the moon is up there and shining. I know all could have been different now, but is not. And as the life goes, naturally human beings regret of that what could have been instead of having joy what is now.
When life is passing by, some of these memories just jump on me, showing the dummy one how beautiful everything was.
That does not mean I do not appreciate what I have now.. It is like you meet somebody who lived in the communism era, which you know was a bit of a terror, and he still votes for the communist party now, just because compared to what he has now, it looks better to have the old times. Bad example.. But suits my purposes. Cant always look back. Need to live in the presence