cruel morning..

"like i would be hit by a wooden paddle" crossed my mind today's morning while walking to the office.. what? do i sustain with schizophrenia already? what is happening with me? yesterday my heart was filled with love, i could not get enough of her blue eyes and today again waking up alone, brushing my teeth and thinking how much i miss her.. what is this world about? should not i spend the time with her? why the separation is needed? for what? what if tomorrow a car will hit one of us (we cannot think about this every day, otherwise our lifes would be completely different).. in the beginning i thought that part of my soul is in her and part of her soul is in me.. i cannot give any visible proof of this, all i know is that i want to be by her side forever..

question is what does she want? such a beautiful woman, such a marvelous princess.. life can be pretty cruel.. (i dont want to spend my life with somebody i would not be happy with)