my dream..

i need to write it down.. split it up and let the dream being spew out.. my studies.. doing a bit research in humanity studies, meeting people, study the history and behavior, psychology, reasons, grounds and the thinking of old masters. i want to study, i want to earn money coz i want to live in a country of my dreams. i want to live with my lady to find out if we can live together or not, i want to live with her, because she brings me joy, happiness, she brings me power and among the others also tears, sadness and understanding.. she brings me all the spectrum of feelings..

what does she want? does she feel the same? why did she pick me? did she pick me? who am i? young man, trying to be someone, to be responsible, to take care, i try to settle down in my soul.. i cannot change the world, frstly i need to change myself..

i hunt for money, because i need them.. if i want to have nice house, i need to buy it, if i would like to move, i need to have money. cannot change the world without them.. not nowadays

i want to live with her, yeah, winter is coming, end of november and i am telling you that i want to live with my lady.. i dunno how it will be after some time, i cannot foretell.. what i know is, that i am in love, time to time i dont understand her, but it doenst mean, that i do not love her, she is my best friend and i assume that i know what she needs..

question is simple.. should i give myself to someone? is it worth? what if my senses, my heart is mistaken? how can i know that she is the one?

answers are in me.. yes, because if i will give myself, i live.. and i also take! worth? no doubts! how can be my heart mistaken? i sense how fragile she is, my lady, i sense what she needs, i sense what she wants.. i sense who she is.. how can i know that she is the one?

for this i have just one answer..

i believe!!