come and lie to my eyes..

thats what i am doing everyday.. intentions hidden behind some patterns of behaviour are clearly against the faith i would like to keep.. as i am know the border is very very thin and easy to cross it is hard to recognize where you stand.. where i stand.. the only true mirror i can have are the people around me and the one who is not afraid to show me the real truth is noone else than my love..

as a stuborn human i believe in the pure intentions and i hide my decisions behind the decisions of others.. it is not easy (as to hear the truth hurts more than i would expect) to listen that i am not the one whom i see in the mirror with my eyes.. it is easy to bite and to attack if somebody will take the truth out and let me see how i lie to myself.. it is easy to blame the other one.. in fact the setup is so that i do not see myself.. the mistakes of mine are very well hidden and i myself have the feeling of taking the right way..

as i inted to do.. to tell that the life is about us and that finally we should stand on own legs, to stand up and to walk.. to walk there where we should walk.. that was my advise for somebody.. to do not let the closest ones lead your life and finally take the responsibility for yourself.. because it is easy to do what they please in a way that you dont need to decide..

i was highly mistaken that i can tell such advise to somebody.. as the truth was taken out and served to my eyes.. i bit.. no wonder that a little stream of blood appeared.. the words were full of poison and missing any understanding.. as i looked inside i saw a human who do the same mistake.. who instead of leading his life accepted the circumstances.. everything was hidden under a good intention.. to make somebody happy..

many ways were taken against this intention.. many tries how to supress this habit into a harmony but it seems that there are again and again ways how to come with the habit on the surface..

thank you for patiente them who understands me, thank you for being my mirror!