overloaded..

my mind is overloaded.. so many things whirling around, so many decisions, so many open things which need to be done.. so many doubts and so many words telling me opposite meaning at the same time.. how to end this i have no idea, meditation came to my mind but i still did not sit down, closed my eyes and tried to calm down my mind and let the heart speak..

questions following me since my childhood, since i've tried to understand the world, the rules, the language are still in my mind and they do not get their answer yet, waiting impatiently, knocking on my soul, trying to get some attention.. so many variables are affecting our life, so many things we cannot change, but which are happening around us, so many things we need to accept because there is not other way, just to assimilate, i am not saying we should be satisfied with it, we still should fight for better days but there are many things we cannot change.. they happened once and we need to take them as they are, the history cannot be changed (and i am afraid, nor the future)..

who is in charge to give us sticks and twigs under our legs, obstacles we need to fight with? in which hands are our lifes? who decides who will die in young age, who will die on cancer, whom will kill a crazy driver?

the men is the brightest sun.. apart from animals who accepts the world so as it is, the man want always something better, the men need to fight with the consequences, the men need to solve the disturbing grumble inside his body, the men have to be strong inside otherwise will become a walking skeleton covered by flash and skin.. the soul is the sun