..decadence..

..still we are just humans.. beautiful, cruel, ugly, honest and full of lies.. uncertainty, concers, worries.. unfulfilled dreams, but also unforgettable sunsets, full of different feelings, might brain and soul full of energy..

do not fall down into despair.. there is always some way.. even if it seems that there is any, look under your shoes and you will find one.. and it is just up to you if you will change it or not..

my love is just one.. i love just one woman and i think this is something what is important for me.. why? why i do not sleep with as much as many women when i have the possibility? why i do not get to know with many of them and enjoy the life? because i do.. i enjoy my life.. i give, i gave and it is very edifying, exalting.. deeper, brighter, colorful.. the bottom of the depth is covered by different shells, different doors, nice paintings, a hidden sky and dreamy sound.. i want to go to the depth, i dont want to stay at the surface.. i want to feel all the feelings, i want to become the one with whom she feels secure, calm and cozy in my hug..

i chose my way.. nobody told me to do it, but everybody is telling me how to do it.. how can they know? i chose the way, i am walking the path, i know the circumstances, i know direction of the blowing wind, where the sun goes up and where it goes down, i know the full moon on the night sky and the shining stars..
they are not wrong, they want help, but do they understand me? do they know me? do they see what i see? i am thankfull for all their advices, i am thankfull for all the books, but same as in the books, my story is not exactly the same, we could find some similarities, but my life is not a novel..

trust yourself and listen to all.. give and take.. be the one in your soul! doesnt matter how crazy it is, there will be always your beloved one who will try to understand you..

you only live once..