strange humankind..

the more freedom you give the more expectations for bonds are required.. me included this is what i am trying to understand.. if i give freedom it is supposed that the human will be happy, but it seems that with the freedom comes panic and once the order of magnitude, the law is gone all what stayed is just somebody who does not know what to do, nobody tells him/her where to go and how to do it..

as this is what could be the truth, it is easy applicable also on a relationship.. also here we can see both types of extremes - there with much freedom relationships one lacks a feeling for a bond - there in much bond relationships one lacks the space for breathing in..

this leads to many misunderstandings and situations where both are speaking but not listening, telling their point of view but not taken into the scope the point of the other one.. it is one thing how i see myself and how the other one sees myself.. no wonder that many times those two perceptions are not equal..

come and lie to my eyes..

thats what i am doing everyday.. intentions hidden behind some patterns of behaviour are clearly against the faith i would like to keep.. as i am know the border is very very thin and easy to cross it is hard to recognize where you stand.. where i stand.. the only true mirror i can have are the people around me and the one who is not afraid to show me the real truth is noone else than my love..

as a stuborn human i believe in the pure intentions and i hide my decisions behind the decisions of others.. it is not easy (as to hear the truth hurts more than i would expect) to listen that i am not the one whom i see in the mirror with my eyes.. it is easy to bite and to attack if somebody will take the truth out and let me see how i lie to myself.. it is easy to blame the other one.. in fact the setup is so that i do not see myself.. the mistakes of mine are very well hidden and i myself have the feeling of taking the right way..

as i inted to do.. to tell that the life is about us and that finally we should stand on own legs, to stand up and to walk.. to walk there where we should walk.. that was my advise for somebody.. to do not let the closest ones lead your life and finally take the responsibility for yourself.. because it is easy to do what they please in a way that you dont need to decide..

i was highly mistaken that i can tell such advise to somebody.. as the truth was taken out and served to my eyes.. i bit.. no wonder that a little stream of blood appeared.. the words were full of poison and missing any understanding.. as i looked inside i saw a human who do the same mistake.. who instead of leading his life accepted the circumstances.. everything was hidden under a good intention.. to make somebody happy..

many ways were taken against this intention.. many tries how to supress this habit into a harmony but it seems that there are again and again ways how to come with the habit on the surface..

thank you for patiente them who understands me, thank you for being my mirror!

roles in the society..

came to my mind yesterday evening the topic of the men and women roles in the nowadays society.. at the beginning we should specify that we cannot think globally so lets pick up an west-european region, average mid-class "family".. the roles of men and women are partly given by the nature where it is set up so that only woman can give birth to a child so for that fact (and few others) is the man more capable to ensure the family cell in a economy way, money. it was supposed to be so that the main word in the family is the fathers word, what father tells is the truth, if father will move, then the whole family will move, the woman had to (under the society presure) follow and take care of the household.. we can see that today this is not possible anymore.. the men and women became equal in the eyes of society, both are able to work and earn money and both are able to to decisions, as we said the difference is done by the nature when woman feels the urge for the family..

lets say that this is just the top of the iceberg.. lets agree that the exceptions are always part of predescribed model of living.. at the end it is always mixed up so that the part of the roles can be switched.. not always it is good and far from the expectations written in the habits of the family members since they grew up in their families.. there they took the pattern of behavior and there is the root of the idea of family..