Midnight crises..

Friday almost three o'clock. The bed is poor, can't sleep on such pillow and moreover the thoughts whirling in my mind do not let me sleep. So many things I want to reach, so many goals set up in my mind. Finally finish bachelor, be good in work, earn so much that my own family can have a piece of bread on a dinners plate. But those are goals more professional than private. Be a good husband, loving father, sophisticated lover, magnificent person, write a book with kind of philosophy bases. And thoughts about what if.. I would have cancer as my parents did? How it would be then? What about Štěpánka and Šimon? Who will take care of them? Will they be able to visit me in hospital? Without any consequences? How about are other kids we would like to have? What about my job? Would I need to leave it? What about.. what if.. what what what??? Can't sleep as such thoughts are not easy to be handled well. The answers are to be found through experience, through the fact that if that will be my fate (and I rarely believe in fate) then only then I will get answers for my questions.

Outer shell..

Does not matter.. everything what matters is proved with deeds and time to time with words. I needed to realize this, some do not even think about it and just behave like there is nothing else more common. Me not. I need time to time remind that I am not better than anybody else, that I am not smarter or more handsome, or some other more.. no no no. There are only deeds which are truly the ones carving our person into a book of life.

Going on and off the..

Escalator in Prague's subway. What this has to do with ethics and freedom? Imagine that people are told to travel up the escalators while standing on the right side. The left side is used usually for those who walk the moving stairs up, although there is no information that the fact why the people need to stand on the right side. (and hold the trail) is because of the fact to have the left side free for the faster ones. What would happen if somebody would walk up the stairs on the left, stopped in the mid of the way up and just stand there. Is it ok unless somebody walks up?