wednesday's day

thought day, in the work, we have been migrated to a new computing system, welcome to Windows 7, I was told, better and faster than our previous Windows. Well, it looks fancy, it is faster, and of course, it takes more space on our hard disks..
bought tickets for myself and my friends for our trip to Ukraine. We will be there for two weeks and just now we got to the point of buying the tickets.
also the wedding is getting closer and the list of things is yes getting longer and yes, many of them are not checked yet for the magical 'done' word
we still did not find the old mull where the fest will take place, we still hope we will find some, or at least some farm, so we could have the guests outside, under the sun, drinking wine, beer and having the roasted pig on their plates.. of course, bowls full of vegetables, fruits, cheeses and other eatable delicates will be free of their choice.
thought day.. came home, found out that I was accepted for the university again, and also my body reminded me that I am more hungry than a wolf

Monday morning at Novotel hotel at Brussels airport

Monday morning, ready to go to the office, just waiting for Pavla so we would have a breakfast. Thinking about home, about people in Prague, about trips and about marriage, it is coming so fast, days are just passing by and we still do not have confirmed a church, this upcoming weekend we go for a trip in the middle of Czech Republic and we hope we will find a church and a priest who will take us under the wings and let us marry in their church, then we also need to find a place for the celebration, no restaurant, a place in the nature, a field or at least some nice place with a wooden house, we will see.. anyway, it is really coming closer, so I hope, I will not miss anything and everybody will enjoy the precious moment of my life.

it is getting closer..

after such a long time I am writing again here some of my thoughts..my soul mate did not talk to me since ever, I did not try to contact..seems we separated, just sometimes thoughts and memories brings her to me and I do enjoy it. I bit sad, a bit melancholic a bit confused I am talking with her. my life changed a bit and I need to take it as it is, can't rewind the time back. there there in the autumn slow air filled with colored leaves comes a wedding, and I am becoming a little bit scared, my choice, my proposal, my idea, my will and still I am not sure inside whether I am doing right or wrong. It seems like I am just standing and my hands are doing something, I am just starring and my mouth is talking something, I do not control my behaviour anymore in this.
she is like somebody I love but still getting used to. still exploring her light and dark sides. still trying to find path. are days when I am just asking myself what I am doing, how come I gave up what everything I had, what I loved, what I truly loved and got another chance, getting used to the new love, getting used to the scent, color and moods it is giving me. sometimes doubtful, sometimes sure like there is not other way for me.
of course I miss my soul mate, my first and last love I had. she was my first and first loves will never be erased from any heart. but instead of taking the path of my heart, I took the part of my dreams. sometimes the two, heart and dreams do cross each other and in those moments everything radiates with good energy, vibe, mood. but sometimes I miss my heart beating in my dreamy world and my dreamy world lacks reality in my beating.