I'm going there..

would be nice to know where are we heading. Would be enough to have a magic wisdom bowl and always when we have question, just ask and you will get your answer. Should I study this major and will I be happy after then? Yes. Should I date with this guy and will he love me for ever ever? No. Then Should I be with the other one who brings me flovers and took me to theather the other day? Yes.
How simple it would be, but it is not. If you take it so and so, the life is all about us. Relationships. I dare to say it, because I believe it is so. Not so much about work, everybody, who wants, can work and earn so much money to be able to survive (those who know, we can survive with a true little..) but at the end, there is always us and the other one. Either man or woman. We always end up in a conversation touching relationship topic.. 'you know, my man is so good he even wash the dishes' 'ou, but mine is even ironing his shirts'.. 'my woman is doing me snacks every day when I go to the office and lunch always when I stay at home'.. 'mine is taking a great care of kids and she is really good in bed'.. all this, all these words and sentences, thoughts and plans are touching us, our souls, our thinking, our lifes. I know it would be great to have the magic bowl and ask questions, but there is none. At the end, it is always a risk and great effort which is part of our lifes. Though, my closest soul would say, don't be stupid man, just listen to your heart and you will find your answers, I'm still not there, not able to listen to my heartbeat, no matter how hard it beats I'm deaf.
Trully, the ones who are able to listen to themselfs, are true masters of life. The ones who rely on God, deal with His will and keep on living under whatever circumstances, are trully worth of respect.

No, it is not easy to stand on the road and decide, 'hould we turn left or right?! But no matter which way you take, the soul is with you and don't be foolish, at the end, we are the ones who build our landscapes, trees and flowers, sky and lakes, moon and sun. Whatever road God gave us, it is us who deal with it.

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Dear, you know my situation&you know I can't blame anybody but myself. I love to philosophise with you&I did not give up my hungarian language affection. I honestly respect everything connected with you&looking back I can only THANK God for you.I don't dare to say more now,I don't know where I am heading, but I know that whatever will happen I have met&settled in my heart one of the most precious people in my life, your friends&my ever closest soulmate, you.

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there is not one day when I would not think about her.