Nothing..again

This is not an experiment..trully when does my brain get what I need to do to pass exams? I need to reach the goal. I must!

Being afraid..

Not having success? Being refused? Being told I am doing things in a wrong way, that I am selfish that I do not think about others. Just not being perfect? But being perfect is not the goal. A human being is not perfect and does mistakes. That I need to accept. All those above as not an offense against me but a sign telling me something.

Again and again..

What is the task, what is the job..the immediate action..learning.. I mean how far can we go when we learn? Why do we (majority of us) avoid it? What is so (negative) difficult in learning if we learn the whole time? Is it the fact that we learn naturally but when we should learn something to school we 'must'?! do that in a not natural way? Like reading a book many times again and again till we know not only the sentences but alsi how they follow each other? And at the end is there a way of natural learning? To absorb the knowledge? To soak it in? To just let it become part of us?

Not only..

When we kill somebody or when somebody dies (meaning the society did not kill him) not only the body itself goes away but also all the thoughts, memories, all what has been hidden but could be done.

Smtg creative..

It came to me through a lot of discussions, that a human being needs to do something creative, this has more to do with today's living for an office rat. A job which we name for our clarification purposes as data input, which is a job where an employee does a job like a robot is something what cant be done for years.. But a position where such man or women is forced to use the brain and create something seems to be more enriching (rewarding).. Of course this is my opinion now and that can be changed in years

Filled with love..

Came back from Brussels and strange things were happening. Yesterday I felt so much in love with my wife as never before. Or probably even before but in a bit of different way. I just felt she is so beautiful, that she is good to me, that she smiles and cuddle to me.. She does that always just yesterday it came to me in my memories all in one and the whole day I was a bit 'out' meaning I was like looking from a different dimension yet soaked in the real world. That was a very nice feeling I had and I am thankful for that.

a little bit of joy..

another day in Brussels, another day giving training, giving information, feeding the hungry brains of locals. hopefully they will have something from that and it will help them to reduce any possible questions for the topic we touch. a little bit of joy from this morning when we made a nice breakfast, a little bit of joy from yesterday's evening when we bought a bottle of wine a good belgian cheese and baguettes. A little bit of joy when we we talking at the hotel room about our lives, about our opinions and all the stuff whirling in our minds that time. A little bit of joy when giving a before-going-to-bed call to my wife. life is full of joy

Situations..

Same family,brother and sister,yet the approach, the way how they look at the world around, the rich and the poor (money level).. Difference. Where is the reason that the two are different? Education? The one in school, yes. The one in family? No. Different star sings, souls, gender? Yes. What is fair? Can we compare them? Can we say which one is happier? Can we say in which situations they are and why? Their social role? Their beliefs? Is there a system which would give them two (three, four....), which would offer them the same conditions? And is that good? Where it would lead?

Money = time for humanity

There is a certain level of life we want to live. I admit I like money. Not that I would be rich like hell, but to have a family house and a garden would be enough. For that level I need money. Also to have a job which would not be for eight hours. Why? To write. To read books. To teach at university. To be with my family. To create furniture from wood. To walk in nature. To live..

Money..

Meine Meinung nach.. I just think money is not part of the question (i dont dare to say I dont like money) it is matter of education. A proper education. Dunno why it seems to me that raising a kid with appropriate level of money leads to a healthy level of money need. I just (my experience) expect that somebody who did not have enough money to buy everything around and would see the connections between the true value of such think and the fact of need such thing from the wish to have it can be (probably partially) taught by the environment where there is just right amount of money.
Therefore I think in case I would have more money then I need (what is the right value?) I would save them or invest them, but I would not 'invest' them into my kid's not appriproate (what is appropriate and what not) wishes

God's clue

The secret of beauty (resp. ugliness) should be kept unrevealed.

That information..

So here it is. My beautiful wife told me what we should become. A little boy. Finally the name is clear. I could see on her face she is happy but would be happier if it would be a girl. Well I promised her next time I will make her a little girl. I am really happy, thank God we have a baby and so far everything goes fine. Thanks

She knows that..

<p>My wife is becoming more and more beautiful. I would never think that somebody can be soo beautiful. She is becoming rounded as her tummy is getting bigger. The little kiddo growing inside is truly a marvel. She had her examination today and she texts that she knows the sex already. I dont want to know that, want to keep the idea it is a boy till the birth giving. Would not mind to have a girl, not at all. Just I am used from my own family where I am the older brother that I am taking care of my 'little' sister though she is already a grown up. Well we will see what God prepared for us. Wonder if the little one has a soul already. Did she (the soul) found our baby now? (refering to voros oroszlan)